Moving On

Don't you get scared? 
Thinking if you'll ever find someone. 

I know, I know, I am just 21 and what do I know about love and I am way too young to even think about this stuff, I have my whole life ahead of me and I should stop with my philosophical shit. 
But even after reading these many blog posts of mine you still don't know that I overthink then either I am really bad writing these or you're just dumb.

Have you ever been in love? 

- Define love.
- No, I don't think so I guess I've liked someone but not love.
- Nah!
- Whatttt? Have you seen me? I'm a mess.
- Nope, still waiting for the right one.
- Yes.

Well, I guess in 90% of the above cases, people actually love someone but are too afraid for some reason to accept it or just to say it out loud. Anyway, for those who have actually loved someone and got over it, How did you do it? I know everybody says that it gets better with time and that you'll meet someone who will be worth all this pain but what if you don't? What if they were supposed to be with that person but they fucked up and now they are alone and are going to be alone for the rest of their lives.

How should one forget about all the memories shared together, all the places they have visited together. It's all so fucked up. When does one just know that it's the right person? To that, they say, "when you know, you know". Yes, they do know but what if they still can't be with someone they want to. I know people who have so much love inside them, they have so much to give but don't have anyone to give it to. To love and be loved. 

I mean, yeah you do have your friends and family but you know this is different, right?
I mean, yeah you do have yourself and your career and your goals and your ambitions but you know this is different, right?
I mean, yeah you are strong and you can face all the lows in life but you know this is different. right?

After a breakup, some people move on easily, some don't but I feel deep down inside, people never move on. You always keep a part of the other person with you, forever. I envy people who get to live their entire lives with their first love. I mean how lucky are they? And I feel bad for people who have to go through so many fucked up relationships to finally find the one. I don't know what it is with us millennials and when did it all get so complicated. We're nothing but broke and broken.

But I hope we all keep fighting for the true love if there's actually something and someone out there.
Keep Loving/Hurting. 




Also, I've decided not to post anything on this blog for a while. Maybe I will whenever I'll feel like it but things are all too much at the moment and I don't think I can continue posting something every week.  
Thank you for reading :)