Have you ever felt this way?
Have you, ever in your life, been at this stage when if you're not involved in a relationship or a fling, and you don't have a potential future partner or just "that someone" in your life but you don't give a shit about it? I mean a situation where you don't have a thing for anyone and no one has a thing for you either.
Like there's no person in the background anymore, someone who you have always thought as " the one " when the other person actually gives no fuck about you but you still care. Like someone you feel pouring your heart out to even though you know how'd they react. Shitty, obviously.
Like you're so busy with your own stuff and, I don't know, have so many things to do? Busy is a blessing indeed. But isn't this a weird feeling? I haven't felt this way in years. It's surreal. Have you ever felt this way?
No one is holding you back, no one is controlling you, no one is fucking with your emotions. It's you, your dreams and the people you care about.
Does that make me less of a person? Not to feel "romantically" for anyone? Selfish? Narcissist? I don't know. I don't think so. What do you think?
Or maybe my mind is tricking me to listen to my brain instead of my heart.
I actually envy you for feeling this way. It’s a different kind of liberation, to not be waiting on someone, I’m here waiting on someone even though they told me it’s not gonna happen and hope is cruel. I’m happy for you, I wish it was just me and my dreams🌻
ReplyDeleteActually it's not being narcissist or selfish. It's the best feeling you can get woth no hopes listening to actually just to your heart. Those emotions that we feel are somehow carries away our own perspectives and self love which is most imp thing to feel. So i guess u r perfectly fine if you are feeling that way
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